One more post…
By Markus | November 15, 2008
…with ellipses. There, I’m done being annoying (as if…).
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I wish I were an astronaut…
By Markus | November 15, 2008
…sort of, sometimes. Not so much today.
(screen shot from Google News)
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Morning coffee…
By Markus | November 15, 2008
…without cigarettes. It’s doable. I keep looking around for that other thing, but my lungs keep reminding me….
Reminders: 236 on the third, haven’t weighed since then. It was the 12th I woke up miserable and decided, once again, to choose breathing over cigarettes.
Stop PDQ.
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Pay Attention
By Markus | October 26, 2008
Just a quick an update for myself, since I have found that the blog works well as a memory agent. Last Monday, went to the doctor for an unrelated issue, weighed 247 lb. I note that I weighed 222 last March 25th. I resumed smoking about two days later. So I managed, it seemed, to gain back about 25 pounds in the seven months I went back to smoking. I told this to my doctor, who noted that this is the opposite of the usual case. I agreed, but said something like “I think I just took my eye off the ball in terms of my overall health.”
He nodded as if this made sense and said, paraphrased, if you were to go into Books-A-Million, into the self-help section, and you could condense everything down, you would come up with two words–then he opened his hands like a book and said, “Pay Attention.”
I stared at him as I felt that tingly, “this-is-a-moment” feeling. Yeah. That sounds right to me.
Today I weighed at Winn-Dixie, on my usual scale, and came up at just a tad below 240 lb. This was without my keys, wallet, and cellphone; in shorts, and in the morning before eating, unlike at the doctor’s. Plus I have certainly been motivated to walk more, eat less, and I’ve been fighting the smoking more. In fact–but maybe that’s another post. I will say that in the last couple of weeks my more positive attitude has been making a comeback; kind of fitfully, like the TV used to do when Dad would go outside and turn the antenna. Snow, the signal coming in and out, before you yell, “there! Right there!” And, God bless him, he could hear me back in those days, thirty years ago and more. I like to believe he can hear me even better now.
I love you, Dad.
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All comments deleted…
By Markus | October 25, 2008
…1465 of them. I’m pretty sure it was all spam (three months’ worth), but if there was a real comment or two in there, which is highly doubtful, I do apologize. I will try to monitor feedback more often, just as I always intend to write more often, but never do.
New category: Meta. How exciting?
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Tonight
By Markus | October 23, 2008
Tonight I am feeling such a mixture of joy and misery.
Jesus Christ, it’s driving me crazy.
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I’m at Robert’s
By Markus | October 22, 2008
I’m just goofing around at Robert’s house, pathetically attempting to show off.
UPDATE: Here is Robert’s “scouring the soul” page.
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Dad is smiling
By Markus | September 20, 2008
I know he is:
Florida routs Tennessee in SEC opener
Gators 30, Vols 6. Yep, Dad has to be happy today.
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Dad
By Markus | September 8, 2008
My dad passed away this morning. I don’t have a lot to say at the moment, except that it’s very strange to be suddenly without my dad.
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Candidatespeak
By Markus | July 19, 2008
Do you think John McCain would mind if we help straighten out his Straight Talk even more?
“I am sure,” Mr. McCain added, “that Senator Obama is going to arrive in Baghdad in a much, much
safer and secure[more dangerous and chaotic] environment than the one that he would have encountered before westarted the surge[invaded Iraq].”
Edited to put added words into brackets.
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